I am Pissed Off

These days life has become so much complex for me. I dn't know what should I do. I get so much angry on each and every small things. All things are irritating me. Its affecting my life my daily routine alot. If I tell you that I have got pissed off then I am not wrong. Some People have made me to feel like this only and I really need to control it.

Today I had a small arguments with one of my friend. Although he is my very normal friend. But still friends are friends. I don't know why this is happening with me. Whether things are not going according to me or I am expecting more from my life. I don't know where is my life going. I am just moving blankly without thinking anything. I have just became the part of mob around me.

In last one and half year I had many bad experiences with so many people in my life. Nowadays when I see my self, I could not believe that am I same Alpana...? A charming girl, who laugh alot and makes smile others, who talk continuously, who love to disturb everyone, who do so much idiotic things, who enjoy each and every moments of her life, who takes life positively all time. Even I can't have the answer of this question. I am not that girl who had all these qalities or bad habits whatever you would like to say....:( These days you won't believe I avoid to talk everyone even from my parents too.

Things has got changed or I have got changed I don't know. I have become so much practical and rude too. I have stopped expecting from every person of my life. One of my dearest friend have given this lesson to me "Alpana Stop Expecting from Others". And really it's one of the best lesson of my life. So many incidences in my life have made me like this arrogant, rude, proudy and much more. I have stopped bothering others people.

But thank god I am an independent girl so usually I don't have much more time to think all this beacuse of my hectic schedule. Most of the time I am busy with my work. But I am a girl who do multi tasking a alot so that I uaually avoid to think during my working hours but still due to my multi tasking habit things starts moving around in my mind. And whenever I get alone then don't ask about my situation.

Apart from that I am blessed with some very good and caring friends, who always stands with me whenever I need them. They stop me when I do something wrong, even they scold me...:) Then I always try to correct myself. My mom one of my very good friend, she also helps me to do this and support me.

Now I have stopped playing games on other's RULES, I will make my own RULES and play games!!!

Aane Wala Pal Jaane Wala Hai

God has made so many beautiful things, that we can see we can feel but the most beautiful things that he has made is LIFE. And we are lucky that he has given us one chance to feel to see all the things that he has made. I have seen so many ups and downs in my life but what I think in every difficult situation, there’s always a beautiful thing. Let me tell you one experience of my life. You people would think that in my every post I always write a story. I write because I want to tell you through those small incidences that it’s not my thinking only those incidences had happened in my life and I always have learned something from those experiences.

One of my very very good friend was in love with a girl. She was not in India. She was living abroad with her family. Her name is kainaat such a beautiful name I heard first time. She was suffering from kidney cancer. One day I was in office my friend called me up and told me, Kainaat loves me a lot but she is suffering from cancer, she has very little time. I wana to do marriage with her and after saying all this he started crying. First time I saw a guy crying like anything in my life. A guy really needs lots of guts to do that. Since he was my very close friend I took Kainnat’s number and talked to her. That time she was in hospital and she didn’t know that she was suffering from some kind of severe disease.




I had talked to her three or four times because most of the time she was keeping her cell off because she was not allowed to talk. Today’s she is no more but still her memories is always with me. Her voice still runs in my mind. Her few text messages are still in my cell. Some times life is so critical man seriously. My friend wanted to do marriage with her but he was not able to be with her in her last moment because he was not able to go there just because of money. How would you feel, you love anyone more than your life you want to spend life with some one but he/she is about to die. How would you feel if you love someone a lot but you are not able to be with that special person in last moment. Very critical moment to face, I have seen many times my friend crying for her. That time I was wishing only one thing, God please save her....Plzzz!!!!



That time I realized life is very precious make it beautiful as it comes your way. You just need to grab your happiness from your moments. Today’s is nothing in your life then don’t take tension that you have nothing definitely tomorrow you will have all things, but for tomorrow don’t spoil your present. Who knows in future what we would have and what we would not. May be tomorrow you will have all things but you will be not there to enjoy it. So dear friends life is very beautiful, live it and enjoy it fully and make it beautiful. I know it’s easy to say for anyone but quite hard to do but atleast we can make try.



Last week I had a party of my department in a disc and you won’t believe I was the single girl dancing among twenty guys on dance floor. I love dancing. Two times I and one of my friend only two people were dancing together on dance floor. I was not bothering that I am a single girl dancing among so many guys, whenever I get chance to enjoy I just enjoy that’s it. I think of future but I live in present and enjoy my life. So Friends enjoy your life as it comes your way and make it beautiful.



This time one song is coming in my mind.."Aane wala pal jane wala hai, Ho sake toh isme jindgi bita do pal jo ye jane wala hai". Infact few days back I was listening this song and suddenly I got the idea to write something. Time is going man, it will never come back again.

ALPANA: A ColourFul Girl

ALPANA means "Rangoli" which usually bengali people makes on Diwali festival. It's a sign of happiness. And I think my name resembles me alot. Although its bit tough to live happy all time but I always try to live happy alot. I smile alot which usually people notice. I try to keep my attitude towards life always positive, which keeps me happy. From my past life i learned one thing:

• Always try to live happy as more as you can because there are lots of people around you who makes you cry....so never bother for those people.

I am very naughty and Mastikhor type of girl. I love to do fun and masti alot most of the time. Most of my college friends call me "Pagli" because of my 24X7 smiling face. But it doesn't mean I never get sad. I am normal like you people. But I never try to show it all one except my some very close friends. Oh God...I am lucky I have very good friends and I am thankful to him for this. His blessings is always with me as my good friends.